Getting started has been tough. A lot has been required of me in terms of putting myself out there and cultivating relationships with different people. I have normally been a shy, modest person especially around people I barely know, but this has helped me to become more outgoing. However, not only am I working on my character, but meeting and forming great relationships. Support has always meant a lot to me. It helps like those times when you are out on the chipping green, rounding off hour 6 and you want to go home and take it easy. I remember people saying the occasional, 'great job', 'way to follow your dreams', or 'good luck with your season!'. Tiny things like that are not so tiny in my mind. They help tremendously!
It's hard being out there by yourself, sometimes. That support means a lot.
It's also great to have that support when things get rough or mentally exhausting. I've always said, you can't do something you love running on fumes. You just can't. There is no will or perseverance to get through something you don't truly have you heart set on.
It is also a challenge financially. I hate asking my own parents for money, I hate asking myself for money! It's just something I have a hard time doing. However, Central Elementary Spell-a-thon's helped a little! Haha. The fact is, I need a lot of money to travel around and play. There have been many that, by the grace of God, have given and I am so grateful for their contribution. However, to play a full season, I need the rest. I don't feel like it's my place to ask for money especially amidst catastrophes (Haiti) and the economic fiascoes going on in the US. I know I am facing a hard road financially in the economic state of the country, yet I will still press on.
A great family friend, who has been following me since I picked up a club at the ripe old age of 4 years old, has given tremendously thus far and couldn't be a bigger cheerleader. He is set on getting me out there and achieving my dreams. It is neat to see him giving back to someone, becuase he wished someone had done the same for him. I can't wait for the day when I can show someone the same grace and sense of giving he has shown me. I am eternally grateful.
Although, this road is hard, I am beyond excited to commence my journey. I hope that people will feel a need to help, anything helps, becuase I NEED HELP! I am not afraid to ask for it. :)
What I am reading: Modoc by Ralph Helfer
What I am listening to: Ke$ha - Animal
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