Surrounding oneself in the rush of the everyday high schooler’s life can take focus off the things that really matter. Not to worry high school senior you will find your first semester that focus quickly changes. I didn’t see that when I was leaving. I was SO excited to get out of Colorado. Boy did that change after a week in the dorm with my new roommate! I don’t adapt well to change. Especially one as drastic as that one. It hit me pretty hard. One thing I did learn, I had to grow up fast. To be able to handle Division 1 athletics, academics, and living in a big city took a big step from me. I was already pretty independent and headstrong but you can only be those things to an extent when you have a parent’s watchful eye glued to your every move. I am ecstatic about coming home. I have run images of Colorado in my head ever since I started to miss it and it feels like I am there now. Only 1600 miles away in my little dorm room dreaming I was climbing Grays and Torreys, or skiing down Mary Jane with Trav, playing 18 holes at Ute Creek, or just sitting in my house enjoying the company of my family, all of these things seem like just memories and it saddens me. I dream of a life from the past. I try to look ahead but I see something completely different. I counsel God on the issue, I hear Him say something like ‘be still and keep your eyes toward the heavens’. However, within me is a constant struggle of being molded into what God has planned and trying to live in the past, of good times and no responsibility. It seems great but God has more in store.
Ah, there’s nothing like growing up. I didn’t think it was going to be scary. I don’t really know what I thought it would entail but with all those responsibilities come greater joys. Whatever those may be remains undetermined but I don’t find myself worrying; just excited to get home to see my family and friends. Excited to go back to the place I’ve spent my entire life living in.
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